Soooo its been a while lovelies! I've had a crazy month, which started with quitting a job, a plane flight home, getting to volunteer at the amazing chrysalis event, a plane trip to hawaii, and a 23rd birthday! All in the first 6 days of the month! Now the month is nearly over and I have to say that it was one of the most amazing months of my life!
The only thing that was missing from this month was birthday cake/excitement. You know what I did on my birthday? Wait for hours at an airport, sit in an airplane for 4.5 hours, eat a lame "japanese" dinner, and then watch my friend study. Pretty lame right? That's when you know you're getting old...when birthdays blend into the rest of the days. Well this year was a fluke...I secretly thought my friend would have some fun plans planned...but I am the planner of the bunch so next time if I want something I will just have to do it myself. And next year's birthday will definitely be big FUN!
But I still had a great month...and now have been back in singapore for a week and you know what? I'm actually happy! And maybe because everyday at my last job was a mix of angst, terror and boredom, but wow I forgot normal, no intense anxiety life felt like. I am sooo relieved everyday when no one gets scolded...and I think my old job made me paranoid! I have this fear that someone is going judge everything I do, raid my computer history, and talk about me in some foreign language. But my new job is just so amazing. (Although I secretly wonder if I think its sooo super great or if its just a million times better than my old job.)
Anyways a longer update is coming soon! Once I find my camera cord! I know its in my giant suitcase somewhere...until next time, xxoo!
Monday, June 28, 2010
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Sparkles and Bows!!
This week has been a rollercoaster...crazy ups and downs...intense emotions...and its only mid week! But today, everything has come in line soooo perfectly. Don't you just love when things work out better than you can imagine? I'm so happy that I can't believe I how much time I spent being anxious and stressed.
To start off the week, I thought that I had the possibility of moving home for good...and even went so far as to talk about the car my parents would get me for my eminent move home. Then, mid-discussion i found out that my long awaited employment pass was approved! I waited four weeks to see if Singapore would allow me to work somewhere else...a job that I will call my dream job (if only it were in America).
The next day I went to work and resigned...and to my surprise it wasn't as terrible as I thought it would be! I thought I would get yelled at and bullied, but to my surprise the person who terrified me the most durinng my tenure was actually understanding. And my ex-employers let me resign on the spot...its so strange to go into work one day and the next day you are no longer an employee...it all went down so fast.
byebye old...hello new beginnings!!
After work to celebrate I got FUN nails...because my new employer agreed to let me have 2.5 weeks off so that I could go home! So this is probably one of the last times in my life before I get too old for this to be appropriate to get some crazy nails. They are black with pink sparkles and bows! I adore them!
super sucky picture...but my camera is already packed!
Anyways...I'm leaving for the airport in a few hours...to go home! I'll be in AMERICA for 2 weeks and I can't even believe it. A mere 48 hours ago I was dreading going into work the next day...and in 25 hours I will be in beautiful California. The best part of this whole story...is that after not being able to find the cheap ticket to Hawaii I had seen earlier...I managed to snag a ticket to Honolulu from LA round trip for $390. So not only will I get spend some quality time at home I get to visit my bestie in Hawaii on my birthday! I am loving life sooooo much at the moment. There are no words to describe it. Next blog will be from the US! XXOO
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Long Weekend Fun
This past friday was Vesak Day...meaning we go the day off! Thank you Buddha for this holiday...i'm not sure what this buddhist holiday is all about...but I love long weekends! I had plans to do fun exciting things...but I ended up just taking it easy and staying in air conditioning.
I finally got to go to another flower arranging class...and made this "inverted T" design. I will show you it the intense too frou frou way my teacher made it...and the way i like it. I did everything with the flowers and my teacher added all the branches afterwards (one of the tall flowers fell over on my ride home...its supposed to be more centered but you get the idea!)
I finally got to go to another flower arranging class...and made this "inverted T" design. I will show you it the intense too frou frou way my teacher made it...and the way i like it. I did everything with the flowers and my teacher added all the branches afterwards (one of the tall flowers fell over on my ride home...its supposed to be more centered but you get the idea!)
so this is how i like it...actually even better would be without the sticks on the side.
this is a little bit much...but still ok...the branches of stuff really accent the shape of the T
AND this is what my instructor added to it..all these crazy branches...its a bit intense right?
Anyways this weekend was great...lots of chill out time and yoga time. I went to double yoga class one day...and it felt great! Until I was crazy sore the next day. I wanted to go find the ice rink with W but ended up being too lazy too...so we are going to find it next weekend. I really miss skating...I wonder what it will be like to skate in rental skates..I will probably eat it just trying to get around the rink.
O and I bought these 2 rings like a week ago...what do you think?!
I really want one of those large rings that take up your whole finger...I just love how they look but so far I can't find any in Singapore....these are BCBG...love them!
Anyways...I bought 2 books today too! Eat pray love and hunger games....both are recommendations...and I hope they are good. I can't wait to start reading them. Until next time lovelies!
Thursday, May 27, 2010
The Great Singapore Sale
So on a much lighter note that my last update...I had a great day today! It is the last day of the week bc of the public holiday tomorrow. I saw sex and the city 2 with V and C, which was amazing! I hope that I will get to do fabulous things in my life one day. The clothes were a bit outrageous...but so beautiful!
Anyways, the Great Singapore Sale also started this week. And I have officially fallen off the no shopping bandwagon. All my fave UK brands had giant sales, and of course everything I wanted was available in my size. This great singapore sale deal is supposed to last 2 monts! How am I going to get back on the bandwagon and save money for EXPERIENCES like I wanted to?! The only thing I can think of is to not carry my credit cards around anymore and just keep enough money for food/taxi rides with me. I bought a few things yesterday and went lunchtime shopping today! So um I am just going to tell myself that this was all a birthday present for myself to justify it. What do you think of my purchases?
I want to visit the UAE now! and I love all of their dresses in this picture...i love dresses...the lazy girl's outfit
perfect lazy girl dress..cute and comfy looking
and i just think this dress is amazing! i also loved the jacket she wore with it in the movie..
Anyways, the Great Singapore Sale also started this week. And I have officially fallen off the no shopping bandwagon. All my fave UK brands had giant sales, and of course everything I wanted was available in my size. This great singapore sale deal is supposed to last 2 monts! How am I going to get back on the bandwagon and save money for EXPERIENCES like I wanted to?! The only thing I can think of is to not carry my credit cards around anymore and just keep enough money for food/taxi rides with me. I bought a few things yesterday and went lunchtime shopping today! So um I am just going to tell myself that this was all a birthday present for myself to justify it. What do you think of my purchases?
I love the beading on this dress...it makes me think of 1920s/ gatsby+daisy
as you know i have been really into the "lazy" dress, my go to outfit...but this was just too cute to resist
you guessed it...another lazy dress. but in my mind this would look super cute under a menswearish black jacket...too bad its soooo hot in singapore!
cute tunic to wear with leggings...my other lazy girl go to
so I bought the black dress underneath...and this is the outfit i made for myself today (the first in a long time) but wearing the denim shirt just made me hot...and i was wishing the whole time that i was just wearing the dress on its own. dressing cute in singapore is just too difficult.
this is the dress by itself/how this lazy girl will be wearing it from now on : )
So I have just realized that I have lately been writing tons about shopping...and thats super materialistic and ultra boring. But honestly, there is not that much to do here...and with the weather as crazy hot as it has been there is even less to do. I was doing soooooo well with not shopping and I have no idea what happened. Well I am definitely going to try to not buy any more clothes in June.
This weekend is a long weekend and I want to do fun things...but I cannot think of anything that won't be crowded or hot. Hopefully I will think of something...and will finally post something that doesn't involve my shopping skills. Until next time, xxoo lovelies!
Getting Older
I am not sure why but turning 23 is really freaking me out. My birthday is next week and until now, I always thought that my age sounded young...even the age 22 sounds like a young adult fresh out of college, ready to conquer the world. But 23, that sounds like a real adult...some people are super successful by then, have traveled the world, have won olympic medals, invented some crazy amazing thing (like the facebook inventor), or at least are well on their way into following their dreams. And where am I? In the middle of Asia, forgetting that time is passing me by.
I find myself often dividing my life into 2 parts: my real life (ie my life in the USA) and my singapore life. I feel like I try so hard to convince myself that this life in Singapore, where I have spent so much time being unhappy and wishing I were anywhere but here, is not reality. At the moment, on this cusp of true adulthood, I often find myself thinking, "when I grow up I would never be one of those people that moves far away and only sees their parents/friends once a year if that". BUT reality flash Stephanie, I am one of those people. I am a grown up and have not set foot in California in half a year, and it might be quite a few months before I do. My real life is here in Singapore...and my other life is in the past. My grown up sojourn into asia has lasted 10 months!
I think the hardest part about getting older, is losing the things that once defined you and trying to find the things that define you now. Growing up I was always there were so many things that always defined me, made me who I was. I was the vegetarian/picky eater, the figure skater, the nice-ish one/the one that easily made friends, and the cute dresser. But in my 22nd year on earth, those things are no longer the ones that define me. I have not skated in a year...that was thing that used to make me feel so unique. And I know that this break from skating will not be like the one I had from age 18-19. I won't be able to just jump back in and skate the same as before. I can feel that my body isn't as young anymore. I am also not such a picky eater any more. I am still a vegetarian, but in these 10 months I have tried so many more food I than I ever thought I would. For instance, today I had a mushroom crepe. I used to hate mushrooms, but now I don't mind them as much if they are mushy. But like who is this person?! And living here has also made me a bit mean/bitter. I am surrounded by drama/work politics and I am not sure why, and drama makes it hard to be nice. Maybe it is Singapore or maybe its me, but I also find it so much harder to make friends now without school. And I no longer bother even making outfits! Its so damn hot that I can't be bothered...i just through on any dress and go. So i guess what I am trying to say is, if I am no longer any of these things that made me who I was for 22 years, than who am I?
I have to admit I never wanted to grow up that badly. I really enjoyed childhood. Although, I guess I had pictured what my life would be like after college, my "grown up" life, but this grown up life came so fast, I wasn't prepared. It is scary to imagine that childhood is really over. I never thought about all the things I needed to do to get to where I wanted to be. I always thought the interview question about your 5 year plan was ridiculous. I mean who plans their life out 5 years in advance? But now I envy those who can.
This year has gone by so fast...it feels like just yesterday that I was home doing something I was really passionate about, working somewhere that actually made me happy. But in reality that was last year, and I have just spent one year wandering off the path that I knew/know I should be on. I keep trying to convince myself that this is just a means to an end, and I keep using the economic recession as an excuse. There are no excuses in life, and I don't want to make excuses for myself anymore. I have to find a way to get back onto my path in life...that is my goal for age 23. No more excuses, this is the time to be the person I want to be, to pursue something I am actually passionate about. I won't let the fear of the unknown keep me back anymore. (I feel like that is easier said than done, but half the battle is saying it aloud, right?) Until next time, xxoo!
I find myself often dividing my life into 2 parts: my real life (ie my life in the USA) and my singapore life. I feel like I try so hard to convince myself that this life in Singapore, where I have spent so much time being unhappy and wishing I were anywhere but here, is not reality. At the moment, on this cusp of true adulthood, I often find myself thinking, "when I grow up I would never be one of those people that moves far away and only sees their parents/friends once a year if that". BUT reality flash Stephanie, I am one of those people. I am a grown up and have not set foot in California in half a year, and it might be quite a few months before I do. My real life is here in Singapore...and my other life is in the past. My grown up sojourn into asia has lasted 10 months!
I think the hardest part about getting older, is losing the things that once defined you and trying to find the things that define you now. Growing up I was always there were so many things that always defined me, made me who I was. I was the vegetarian/picky eater, the figure skater, the nice-ish one/the one that easily made friends, and the cute dresser. But in my 22nd year on earth, those things are no longer the ones that define me. I have not skated in a year...that was thing that used to make me feel so unique. And I know that this break from skating will not be like the one I had from age 18-19. I won't be able to just jump back in and skate the same as before. I can feel that my body isn't as young anymore. I am also not such a picky eater any more. I am still a vegetarian, but in these 10 months I have tried so many more food I than I ever thought I would. For instance, today I had a mushroom crepe. I used to hate mushrooms, but now I don't mind them as much if they are mushy. But like who is this person?! And living here has also made me a bit mean/bitter. I am surrounded by drama/work politics and I am not sure why, and drama makes it hard to be nice. Maybe it is Singapore or maybe its me, but I also find it so much harder to make friends now without school. And I no longer bother even making outfits! Its so damn hot that I can't be bothered...i just through on any dress and go. So i guess what I am trying to say is, if I am no longer any of these things that made me who I was for 22 years, than who am I?
I have to admit I never wanted to grow up that badly. I really enjoyed childhood. Although, I guess I had pictured what my life would be like after college, my "grown up" life, but this grown up life came so fast, I wasn't prepared. It is scary to imagine that childhood is really over. I never thought about all the things I needed to do to get to where I wanted to be. I always thought the interview question about your 5 year plan was ridiculous. I mean who plans their life out 5 years in advance? But now I envy those who can.
This year has gone by so fast...it feels like just yesterday that I was home doing something I was really passionate about, working somewhere that actually made me happy. But in reality that was last year, and I have just spent one year wandering off the path that I knew/know I should be on. I keep trying to convince myself that this is just a means to an end, and I keep using the economic recession as an excuse. There are no excuses in life, and I don't want to make excuses for myself anymore. I have to find a way to get back onto my path in life...that is my goal for age 23. No more excuses, this is the time to be the person I want to be, to pursue something I am actually passionate about. I won't let the fear of the unknown keep me back anymore. (I feel like that is easier said than done, but half the battle is saying it aloud, right?) Until next time, xxoo!
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